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2009-07-12T01:09:00.002+10:00

Heyloow!!

Lil miss me ishh back! And at the moment the current time is 1:09 in the morning. Well, what can i do? I cant sleep. Can't blame a woman for trying.

So anyway, due to my insomnia, i've decided to might as well post up a blog about whats been going with me. What is new? How am i feeling?

Alright, first of all, i just want to explain myself, this blog is just everything im feeling inside me at the moment, some of them i haven't mentioned to anybody and please do forgive me for not mentioning it to anybody especially my good friends and my baby, but these are all recent anyways. So here we go, i shall just rant it all out!!

*Ahem ahem*

Ok, where do i start? To be honest, I dont even know..hmm..ok.

Firstly, a big thanks to my Robbie boo! Shux, all i can say is this guy is just unbelievably amazing, and i am so proud of him with everything he has done and also i am very proud of him for his achievements and things he is going to achieve in life. Robbie is unbelievable why? because i am a pain in the bee-hind, and he has been so patient with me. honestly, i reckon im such a female dog sometimes (maybe most of the time) but he still just gives me the love, care, patience or whatever it is that i need. HONESTLY, baby boo, you are amazing! And i truly thank you for everything and thank God i found someone like you! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!

Secondly, omgawsh nikki and dianne the two girls i always run too first when i feel helpless, maynn,, you chykee are the bestest!! Dont get me wrong i do talk to others too, but these girls are like a sister to me and joanna n shaz too. but just a couple of weeks ago i just felt helpless and these girls just help me out and they are just awesome! and i thank them heaps for everything! cause they are the sisters ive never had. hehe.

Now to a more serious situation, i just cant express how much life is so precious. I know i've rant about life in a previous blog before, but honestly, I've experienced in the last 2 months, people passing away, they are not family, but they did make a significance in my life. They have had a long life although a couple unfortunately did not, but still. This made me realize that in a blink of an eye life can just disappear. That's why, i do believe that we should live our life to the fullest. stop wasting time on things that is not gonna help live our lives fully. It's such a precious gift from God, and it deserves to be treasured. These people made a huge significance in my life, and just by knowing them i feel very blessed, may they now rest in peace. ♥

lastly, i just want to release my frustration about a certain situation!
gawshh, you are such a selfish and spoilt brat. I just feel like i wanna slap you, or yell at you, or do something! you get everything you want and yet you still want more. what bugs me is that you act like your so smart and all that, but really when you think about it your so foolish and stupid. honestly! ok actually lemme take it bakk your smart not intelligent! your smart in tryna get everything your way but your just silly, you are so frustrating honestly! but you knw what even thru everything your doing i have to say that i still do have respect for you. why? because instead of screaming at you and telling you that your so foolish, i just shut my mouth n not say anything. why? first of all it aint my place. second i dnt want you to be 'down' cause of me and i dnt wna be the cause of your stupid actions. id rather shut it and let others tell you off. im not taking your side tho i can tell you that. cause your just sillee stop wastin ur bloody life on your stupidity. and for goodness sake why dont you act you flipping age already. GROW UP WHY DONT CHA! stop tryna be something you are not cause honestly i think your just fake! be true to yourself already. arghh..i can keep going on but id rather not! xx

Arelie's 21st

2009-07-11T20:14:00.009+10:00

Alightioo, so its been awhile since my last other blog post. Why? Because lil miss me, got VERY lazy and I could not be bothered. Honestly.

Anyways, so here I go, 2 weeks later, posting a blog about Arelie's 21st!! =]

Wells, what can I say, it was simply the bestest! lols. It was my first time driving to Arelie's house, because the last two times I went there, I caught a lift from Lowi, and the second was I caught a train. This time I drove from the suburb where I live in to her suburb. And guess how long it took me?? 45 mins! Not that long and not only that her place aint that hard to find and getting there was very straight forward. So i am not complaining at all. Anyways, so getting ready for the party was awesome. I had my good ol' hairdresser (dianne chris) to help me out. She also help me shop for my good ol' 'bling blings'. And what else? hmm, she approved of my make up lols. hehe. Oh and she help me find arelie's present and also help me find the perfect cute lil purse =]. And she came with me to get my nails done. So basically she was there for everything...EXCEPT the party, unfortunately. The reason why she wasn't allowed to sleep over at Arelie's, and this is because I was gonna sleep over.

Anyway, so I got my hair done early in the morning around 9.30amish at the dycueco residence of course. But before I went to their place I had to make a quick pit stop to the shopping centre and buy a birthday card which i stupidly forgot about. By 11.30amish, my hair was DONE! And ill have to say it looked unbelievable! LOVED IT! Then, mom calls me to pick her up at the shopping centre. So i did, but my dear mother, wasn't even finish doing her shopping, so we didn't get home till about laterishh. Then I had to go home and pack my bags for my sleep over at arelie's. but around 1245ish i had to go pick dearest dianne up and drop her to work and she had to do the final touches on me dear hair.

So after that I dropped dianne off to work, top up the petrol in my car, pick up my bags, and off i go to arelie's house. And 50 mins later, there i was at her place, helping her getting ready. Let's just move on to the party shall we?

What can i say? It was absolutely fun!! Especially when it was time to dance!! UNBELIEVABLE! hehe. Anyways, I was one of her candles which i gotta sy thanks much chykee! And also, it was absolutely fun! Went to sleep at 4am. Then, had to get up at 7.30, I was a walking zombie trustttt mee!! But i had so much energy, i went to church, like full on energetic but by 5pm sunday afternoon, i was sleeping in nikki's bed. lols! ALL WRECKED! it was an awesome night, i wasnt able to take much pictures but here are some of them! I was too busy dancing and what not thats why! mwah xx

Ivy, Kristine and Rachel before at the beginning of the night.

Kristine and Ivy before everything again.

Kristine and Ivy, waiting for the line to get the food to go down.

Maryanne and Lowii aww arent they gawjuz together? =]

Ivy & Mezza: weirdo alert, about to go to the dance floor baby!

The Birthday girl and I taking it away on the dance floor, nice thongs az!

The sober twin. LMAO

the drunken twin! LMAO

The birthday girl & I at the dance floor!

The two weirdos: Ivy and Lowi

DJ and Ivy (nice face haha)

Mezzzaaaaaaa and Ivyyy

Alrightio so as mentioned earlier, i dont have much photohs from the party, and when i get more pics i shall post it up, i had no time to take photohs cause i was having so much funnn!! xx

blackberry bold

2009-07-07T00:18:00.005+10:00

I'm back again,
I can't believe it, this would be my third blog for tonight, shux, wouldn't you say 'I'm on a roll'!
Anyways, so I just wanna talk about this amazing gadget I got on the 21st of June 2009. Well it was a sunday morning like no other, because my stupid samsung phone just decided to give up on me. Don't get mistaken I had another phone it the LG viewty, but unfortunately since it's a touch phone, I can't be bothered messaging with the darn thing, so I use my samsung to txt instead. But it gives up on me. So I decided because I was so upset about my phone giving up on me, to buy a cheap under $100 phone instead. So off I went to vodafone, with my good pal, Nikki & my brother, Isaiah. We were looking around then I saw the BLACKBERRY BOLD. Actually, to be quite honest, I've been wanting to get this phone a couple of months ago. But I decided, no silly, dont waste money, since i got two phones already, and anyway what is the use.

Then, this made me realize I can FINALLY get the blackberry bold, but wait how much is the plan for it? and also if i have to pay for internet on the blackberry bold stuff it! So I asked one of the guys working there and he mentioned that internet was unlimited and free! So I yelled, well not really, i couldnt embarass myself. then i asked how much was the plan. I shall not mention it here, but it is reasonable knowing how much i spend for credit every month. So obviously I went for it and got my lil baby blackberry bold! This gadget is my dearest and most precious, followed by my laptop and my dear car! hehe.

OMGawsh it is unbelievable! I absolutely love it!! I go on the net using my blackberry most of the time, msn, facebook, google, and whatever! Except for this, cause its too small and its easier to type it out lols! =P otherwise, i love my blackberry bold! I was disappointed however on the whole no video calling capability tho =[ but merh, its absolutely awesome! It's a 2mgapxl cam, but its good enough for me, since I got a camera anyway!

This gadget of mine is absolutely amazing and I am definitely inlove with it! and also I recommend (cant spell i know?) it. ITS AMAZING!

2 weeks placement

2009-07-06T23:55:00.002+10:00

So, it has been awhile since i last made a blog of course not counting the post before this, because that blog was just a plan for what to blog about or what not.

Anyways, so I had two weeks of placements for uni the week after my exam. And wells, what can I say about my placement...it was a very pleasant experience. I shall not name the hospital I went to on this blog of mine, even when most of you who knows me would have already heard what I said about my placement, IT WAS GOOD!

To be honest, I actually enjoyed myself with this placement of mine, it was a very pleasant experience. What can i say? I have learnt so much from this placement alone and not only that I actually feel like I'm a DIV 1 NURSE already. Even though i'm only a Div 2 and i'm just a Div 1 student, i still feel as though, I've got the power *breaks into a song and dances*.

Anyways, back to reality, yes it was awesome! Definitely enjoyed it! Learnt so much and have taken on board a lot of things, which is because of my awesome clinical teacher and the staff I've worked with! TWAS AWESOME *2 thumbs up*. It was weird though cause whilst on placement, I was watching Doctors do their ward rounds, and doctors who are in their scrubs and what not, and I was like in my head, "OMGawsh, I want to be like that one day"! The interns totally impressed me, & it made me think, hmm,..i want to be an intern now or maybe a registrar, then i get to wear cute outfits lols! Then, someone help me realize that to become a doctor, I have to learn in depth bioscience *dum dum dum dum (scary music sound)*, and believe it or not, in a blink of an eye, that dream was gone! =P

This experience was amazing as I got to help administer meds, flush IV's, take IVC out, watch endoscopy, go to recovery, so close to going in theatre, experience METCALL procedure, bloods and last but not least wash a diseased patient (all these were done with RN supervision). These will definitely help me with my nursing skills now and in the future. I have learnt so much in these two weeks which I absolutely enjoyed as well! Of course, experiencing the metcall for me was absolutely scary, but otherwise it was good to be there and experience it. In these two weeks of placements, I've also learned that you have to be strong emotionally and be as professional as you can be. One of the patient's, the RN and I was looking after, sadly passed away, on the day I was there, and I saw everything. It was very heartbreaking for me, and emotional for me but, I learnt to be strong. I know it is a part of the job but when you are in that situation even if you know that it is a part of the job you can not help but be emotional sometimes. I am not going to ellaborate on this situation cause I'd rather not.

Anyways, all I have to say was that my placement was really good and was a very pleasant experience and the staff and my teacher made a huge impact to my learning in that two weeks.

baby, im back!!

2009-07-06T23:46:00.004+10:00

alrightio my dear lovely bloggers,

what can ii say? two weeks without blogging = stacking of things to blog about.
so ok here we go, in two weeks obviously a lot of things has been happening!!
but where do i start?!

dang this is going to be hard.. *scratches head*
hmmm...*looks at her planner*

*light bulb switches on in her brain* I know what I'm going to do, I shall blog about my plan of what to blog about, actually, this blog is going to be about the things i will have to blog about!

Rightio,

firstwould be: MY 2 WEEKS PLACEMENTS!

second: MY LOVELY BLACKBERRY BOLD!!

third: ARELIE'S 21st BIRTHDAY BASH!!

~~fourth: TRANSFORMERS!!~~

fifth: what's bugging me ;] & baby boo!

alrighty, this would be the end of this blog because i shall begin blogging about my 2 weeks placement. till my next blog! MWAH xx

something sweet

2009-06-30T00:02:00.002+10:00

something i got tagged by ramz =] its really good its schweettt!!

When I created the heavens and the earth, I spoke them into being. When I created man, I formed him and breathed life into his nostrils. But you, woman, I fashioned after I breathed the breath of life into a man because your nostrils are too delicate. I allowed a deep sleep to come over him so I could patiently and perfectly fashioned you.

Man was put into sleep so that he could not interfere with the creativity. From one bone I fashioned you. I chose the bone that protects man’s life. I chose the rib, which protects his hearts and lungs and supports him, as you are meant to do.

Around this one bone, I shaped you, I modeled you. I created you perfectly and beautifully. Your characteristics are as the rib, strong, yet delicate and fragile. You provide protection for the most delicate organ in a man, his heart. His heart is thee center of his beings; his lungs hold the breath of life. The rib cage will allow itself to be broken before it will allow damage to the heart.

Support man as the rib cage supports the body. You were not taken from his feet, to be under him, nor were you taken from his head, to be above him. You were taken from his side, to stand beside him and be held close to his side. You are my perfect angel. You are beautiful my little girl. You have grown to be a splendid woman of excellence and my eyes fill when I see the virtue in your heart. Your eyes – don’t change them. Your lips – how lovely when they part in a prayer. Your nose so perfect in form, your hands so gentle to touch.

I’ve caressed your face in your deepest sleep, I’ve held your heart close to mine. Of all that lives and breathes, you are the most like me.

Adam walked with me in the cool of the day and yet he was lonely. He could not see me or touch me. He could only feel me. So everything I wanted Adam to share and experience with me, I fashioned in you; my holiness, my strength, my purity, my love, my protection and support.

You are special because you are the extension of me. Man represents my image – woman, my emotions. Together, you represent the totality of God.

So Man, “treat woman well, Love her, respect her, for she is fragile” In hurting her, you hurt me. What you do to her, you do to me. In crushing her, you only damage your own heart, the heart of your father and the heart of her father. Woman, support your man, in humility, show him the power of emotions I have given to you. In gentle quietness show your strength. In love, show him that you are the rib that protects his innerself.

Robbie!!

2009-06-13T21:16:00.014+10:00

its saturday already, W O W ! the week has gone by so fast, i can't believe that i got placements on monday already, i shall see what happens then...

i cant believe that i dont even get a couple of weeks to rest =[ oh well that's life..

anyway, so if anyone has me on friendster or facebook or myspace, you may have notice that my relationship status may either be, married or engaged. alright - just to clear things up to my darling family friends and even family and friends, im N O T married - yet! im n o t engaged yet either, one day that day will come, of course all in God's time. and obviously, if i was married or even engaged you all would DEFINITELY know for sure. Not only that, knowing me and my absolute 'passion' of posing for the camera, you would definitely know because i would DEFINITELY have photos up. i assure you that you would not miss out on that news. kapishh?? =]

anyway, so to all who dont know the news, i do have a boyfriend, my awesome baby boo, ROBBIE ROBERTSON FLORDELIZ! He is filipino dont worry. And guess what? I'm actually older than him (=P baby, haha..) - for like 11 days =P lols! He is absolutely awesome and very sweet & caring. This month, on the 23rd its actually gonna be our 19 months. YAY!! Anyway, im currently talking to him on the phone at the moment, his asking if im doing a blog about him. So baby, here's the answer to that question...

I SURE AM!!

Anyway, he is currently babysitting his two nephews and his little adorable niece. His so adorable with them, shux, his honestly absolutely the best!! I am so inlove with him. He is just one amazing and wonderful person. Also, he is very very patient. especially with me, i can be very 'demanding' lols (am i? - hope not). Oh another thing about him is that he can be very bulol with his tagalog which is hilarious, if not he has such a strong aussie tagalog accent it is absolutely hilarious. So please, dont be so hard on him when he speaks tagalog lols. Actually to be very honest, i think im the one who is hard on him when he speaks tagalog because everytime he talks i just start laughing! *SIGH*. Anyway, moving on - i do love this amazing guy so much! And i thank God for bringing him into my life, i feel very blessed to have him in my life.

Hehe. Anyway, here you go baby, this blog is for you!!
(And ps, be nice to migz, lols dnt do anything drastic!)
MWAH

xx

tear down the walls

2009-06-12T22:35:00.012+10:00

Anyway, so I got the hillsong united album about a couple of months ago, and its just really good! I absolutely love it! Dont get me wrong i love all the songs, i love the whole album, but this song just really touched me. it's the best! I absolutely love Hillsong United!!

Anyway, so here's the song, Tear down the walls by Hillsong United.
I pray that you will be touched too.
God Bless.

Through my worsip leading, i want to see people crying out to God and reaching out because of their hunger for God's touch. I wanna bring and keep bringing people to worship and touch their lives.

God Bless

check ups

2009-06-12T18:05:00.004+10:00

another day another blog,

well, i guess ill have to make up for not blogging for a week and a half. it was really hard for me to not blog because i wanted to do a blog on things, but unfortunately because of my exam week i was not able too. But now that i can do a blog as much as i can, i dont even know what i want to blog about.

so hmm, just let me think for a bit..
*clock ticks*
hmmm...
*clock keeps ticking*
hmmm...
nope. got no idea honestly. hehe.
well i shall just do wateb!!

so like ive said, im actually done with exams! Y A Y - finally!! but next week ive actually got placements on for the next two weeks. and ive just realized that im on afternoon shift for my placements and i dont know how im going to be able to sing on friday night for youth. uh-oh! oh well, ill sort it out anyway. im kinda excited for my placements because i loved acute placements when i did my div 2 so now im hoping it would be good too, im kinda not excited about it because, ive heard a couple of things about nh, and apparently staff can be very rude. so im really hoping that wherever ward i go too, the staff would be good. because obviously it makes a difference to our learning.

anyway, moving on from the topic of nursing and 'study' related topic,..
since saturday, i've been having chest pain and difficulty breathing, it was so bad. i felt tightness in my chest. so i didnt really know what to do, i still went to work anyway thinking that it's probably just nothing. The next day which was sunday i had work again and before i went to work i was having second thoughts because i still had chest pain and breathing problems, so i messaged my mom and asked but she didnt reply till i got to work, she told me to go doctors. so at 1030 at night i went doctors since i worked till 10pm. the doctor just said that i just had a cough hence, cant breathe properly. So after that he told me to go home and just rest and have pain relievers like panadol and what not. By the way, it took me an hour to see the doctor and it only took me like 15 mins to see him, so i was so pissed off. And plus if i had a cough wouldnt i know that? D U H !

anyway, i followed what the so called doctor said, but still the condition did not change, my chest pain was definitely gone although my breathing was still B A D! Went to exams with shortness of breath and tightness in my chest, so finally thursday came, last day of exam, i had work, i decided to call in sick and go doctors and check what really is going on. And finally i got something better, he said i should drink nurofen because my chest pain is muscle pain in the chest hence i feel tighness in my chest which is affecting my breathing which is why im having shortness of breath. It was a relief, i thought there was something going on with my lungs or even my heart. You know..

It got me worried and scared, but thankfully that's it since apparently my lungs are alright. Anyway, after all this, unfortunately im still having shortness of breath and tightness in the chest, however, now my chest pain is gone so im just waiting for my breathing to go back to normal now. im really glad and relief its nothing major. T h a n k G o d!

Well, that's all i can say for now. Till my next blog!!

xx

exam week

2009-06-12T10:37:00.003+10:00

allohh!!
what can ii say? lil miss me ishh backk!! =]
oHh yesshh i'm back..
the last time, i've put something on my blog was about a week and a day ago.
and guess what? did anyone noticem i changed my blogskin? soo...anway...
why did i out of no where disappeared?

well well well,
unfortunately, i had to be stuck doing this thing called E-X-A-M-S!
basically, i just had my EXAM WEEK! unfortunately.
now before exam week, i had two weeks (oh wait! i think it was three weeks) of study leave. so this is where i was suppose to study for exams so that i can do well. But if you know me very well, all i did the past three weeks before exam was BLUDGE! and procrastinate. don't get me wrong i did try and study, but my brain was not retaining any information i fed it, which was absolutely S T U P I D!

so EXAM WEEK, was basically, absolutely full of KRAP!

+ - FIRST DAY OF EXAM - Tuesday 9[JUNE]2009 - Acute Care - +

well honestly, this exam, was not as bad as i thought it would be. It was alright, it wasn't bad. I just hope and pray that I do pass this exam anyway. To be honest, I can't even remember now, what was in this exam. Oh well, what can I do? hehe. I just hope that I pass this one.

+ - SECOND DAY OF EXAM - Wednesday 10[JUNE]2009 - Bioscience: Pathophysiology - +

ohh maii..what can I say about this exam. this one was an absolute pain in the bum! As I sat in the exam hall freezing my bottom, reading and going through the exam because the first 15 minutes was reading time only, my heart started to beat so fast, and I sighed as i turn each page to go to the next page. It was absolutely KRAP i tell you. I know exams can be difficult epecially if you have not studied at all. But the thing is that I did know a things, but I tell you, this exam was absolutely HORRIBLE! It was the HARDEST exam i've ever had in my ENTIRE LIFE! It was the type of exam that, you just want to burn. Honestly, after the exam, I just wanted to leave, I just wanted to walk away from the damn exam, dont worry I didn't. I actually sat it and finished the exam, I attempted all the questions even if it was all bloody hard. As I walked out of the exam, rain started to pour, and it was absolutely freezing, I went straight to my car, sat there and started to cry. I cried. That's the first time I've ever cried over an exam. That is how hard this stupid exam is. I'm just hoping and praying to God, that I at least pass even if not a pass, I hope to at least get an opportunity for a supplimentary. I shall move on from this topic, because I am now having difficulty breathing AGAIN.

+ - THIRD/LAST DAY OF EXAM - Thursday 11[JUNE]2009 - Mental Health- +

Well, what can I say, after my bioscience exam, I just couldnt be bothered. But no after yesterday, I had to make sure, I know my stuff so I woke up at 0330 to study for this subject. And well, this exam was alright, just like the first exam, it was not bad. I just hope and pray that I do pass this one too. This was alright because most of the questions was about schizo, which i actually studied and know about because I did it for my assignments, so that a relief.

+ - END OF EXAMS - +

well, what can I say, that's it for exams, their all done, finally, but still not holiday because I got placements at the Northern Hospital for the next two weeks. I just hope this would be a good placement too, since I've heard that staff can be very rude so I'm hoping this would be good. Oh well that's all from me for now, until the next blog..

my boredom

2009-06-04T17:14:00.008+10:00

So this is what happens when boredom hits me..

Ivy & Joanna (absolute idiocy)
TOP: oh no! she's trynna kiss me!! BOTTOM:wth are you doing?

Tita E, Isaiah, Jo, Me, A car that's too big for such a small girl ME =]
it was freezing that night, i think it was about 1045pm when we took this pic?

Ivy & Dianne waiting for our turn to sing - ITS KARAOKE TIME! But whilst waiting we've decided to take peeekkchuuurrrrsss!!

TOP:Ivy & Dianne patiently waiting for our turn on the karaoke! BOTTOM: It started raining that night because I sang =P

alright, so as much as ii wanna keep putting up more pictures of my bored moments, i have to go somewhere so ii shall do that some other time! xx

O4O6O9

2009-06-04T16:09:00.004+10:00

another day of bludging comes along,
this is going out of hand, i have not touched my notes or studied at all today, why?

..because my morning started at 7.50am (NOT a morning person = NOT a happy person getting up early in the morning). my parents told me that someone was coming in to fix the shower floor around 0800-1100 but guess what time the person came...0750!! I was half asleep in my pajamas, messy hair, it was absolutely ridiculous and PLUS i have not had my morning coffee!! So as you can imagine - I was an absolute MESS!

My brother on the other hand is waiting for me to drop him off too school but because someone came at home to fix the shower, he had to wait, then he decided that his not feeling well, why not just go to school at 1055-1235 for exams, so obviously I agreed to this situation, but I thought, if my parents found out IM SO DEAD! So we decided to call my dad, and he agreed because my poor brother has not been feeling well since Tuesday, of course my dad started getting worried with the whole H1N1 around. So he told me to take my dearest brother to the doctors, but I didn't have a medicare card, so I had to pick up the medicare card at dad's work, which was 'fun' especially that i was still half asleep without my morning dose of caffeine!
Anyway, skipping the whole picking up the medicare card scene, we were on our way to the doctors, in the car I asked my brother, "I hope you don't have H1N1 or else I'll have to be quarantined as well!", i thought to myself, "OMG, you are such a bisshhh! WTF? why say that to the poor thing who was so anxious about what he has! im so mean". So i just reassured him he was fine anyway, but unless the doctor said something we would not know, so anyway, he does NOT have H1N1, its just tonsil-itis =[ poor guy! After that, I decided that instead of going home ill have a shopping time lols, instead of getting my brother to rest (i know im so mean, dont have to tell me, i already know =[ *disappointing*).

Well, after that, I dropped my poor brother to school and had to pick him up an hour an a half later i think, wells, poor thing is just too sick at the moment, he started to have a fever, so obviously my ~~not so good~~ nursing skills had to be put on the test. So yes I did not study at all today so far, I took care of my poor brother instead. and I think i just bludged? I'm not sure! MERH! Whatever,.. *i cant believe im still bludging around on blogspot i haave to stop*..

I guess I have to go now and stop the bludging and study =[ ohh well..farewell my dearest blog ='[ it's time to study ='[

live your life

2009-06-02T23:27:00.009+10:00

On the o1 of June 2OO9, I was bored out of my mind and because I was procrastinating, I was going through people's pages on facebook, until I found something that caught my attention. It was a really touching blog from one of my friends. What can I say...I was touched by it.

You hear a lot of people that 'life is precious', that you should live your 'life to the fullest', that 'life is to short too waste', but in all honesty, I've realize that it's most common that we don't take these quotes seriously.

Personally, I think life is a precious gift from God. We are alive because He created us to be here, He gave us an opportunity to live life on earth.

Well, anyway on the sad note, I know quite a number of people who had already lost their lives. But what gets to me the most is that when people who wants to live their lives - lose their life unexpectedly from accidents. Whilst others attempt to take their life - some do succeed & some fail. Isn't it weird how the world is? You'll find people who still want to live their life lose it & people who wants to take their life still living it. Ironic isn't it?

Well I remember a friend of mine who passed away when I was in high school in NZ, because she commited suicide, it upsetted the majority of my year level, as she was a very well known and friendly girl. In such a young age she lost her life. But that was her choice, what could we do about it? Nothing. She made her decision. But to be honest, a lot of my fellow students shed a tear when they heard about her passing away, because a lot have thought about what if i did that or what if i did this. We all wished we could've done something to avoid it. But it's already done we couldn't do anything about it. That same year as they announced her death in the assembly hall, they have also announced another death of a fellow student, I knew him but he was more of an acquaintance, & unlike hers, he passed away due to cancer, which by the way, no one knew he had. So as you can imagine, it all hit us by surprise.

Now moving on to the blog that's touched me, it was a blog on facebook from a friend of mine, I thought it was just one of those notes (survey) on facebook when you tag people but this time it wasn't. It was something very touching. Now, this friend of mine, had just recently lost a loved one. She's around my age and her loved one, is just a year younger than me. The person who passed away was her boyfriend. When I read her blog, I was in tears. Because I know that if I were in her position I don't know how I'd be without Robbie. Now her and her boyfriend, have shared their hopes and dreams and what they see in for themselves in the future, can you imagine going through a situation where all your hopes and dreams with that certain person would just fall into pieces, because that person is gone.

To be honest before what happened to my friend, I've thought about how I would be if I lost my loved ones and by loved ones on this note I mean my family. I can't really go through the thought. Honestly, I don't know what I'd do without them (mom, dad & bro). Now, to be honest, when it comes to losing Robbie, I have never thought of it that way, everytime I think of losing Robbie, it's the 'break-up' type of losing him, not in the 'passing away' type. Then because of what had happened to my friend, I've thought about it, and it just put me to tears. I was crying because I never want to lose him. Because, I see him as a part of my family now. Because, I share my hopes and dreams with him and because we've planned our future together. So like I said, if I was in my friend's situation, I would not be in a good state, and for people who know me well, me not being in a good state would be really BAD.

My friend's blog brought a lot of things in my mind, it brought me back to when I was in highschool in the assembly receiving the announcement of our two fellow students who had passed away, it brought me back to family's funeral, and also brought me thoughts of how I'd be without my family (including Robbie). I realized that anyone can just lose their life in a blink of an eye, and that's anyone including me. So we really don't know what tomorrow will bring & we really can't take life for granted.

Life really so precious, that it should not be wasted. Life should not be wasted on stupidity and things that can put yourself in risk of losing it. Live your life to the fullest, yes, that's so true, but again, live you life to the maximum without putting yourself in danger and in risk of losing it. Of course however, if it is your time, we can't do anything about it, but just life it up! Don't be so negative in life and be more positive. Always give thanks to God especially for your life and giving you a new day and for you love ones as well.

"Psalms 104:33 - I will sing to the Lord all my life, I will sing praise to my God as long as I live."

x This blog was inspired by a friend of mine who just recently lost her boy. I've been wanting to write a blog about life for quite some time now, it's just that I really did not know what to say...but now I do with your insiparation, you should know who you are. I hope that when you see this you know that you're blog was very touching & I pray that you will stand strong! A lot of people are standing here by your side just stay strong, he is now watching you from up there. x

h1n1 in australia

2009-06-02T22:38:00.002+10:00

news:http://au.news.yahoo.com/a/-/latest/5618872/six-vic-schools-to-close-over-swine-flu/

i found this article last night about the human swine flu in australia. There's actually another artice about the human swine flu in australia, i found that the majority of the cases of human swine flu are in victoria =S.

my parent's are all like 'dont go out too much and eat out too much because swine flu is going around'.

it's so weird cause last week i went to epping plaza and the maccas in the food court was closed apparently due to something related to the human swine flu. Also, i found that two local schools in our area have closed down due to the same reason, weird cause it's so close to home...

last week of may

2009-06-02T21:21:00.004+10:00

Well, thanks to Dianne, she has given me an idea about posting a blog of the past week, which was the last week of May. So here we go:

Monday - 25[May]O9

× ii was suppose to do my literature review assign, but instead, ii slept the whole day. ii remember not feeling very well and felt very weak and tired.

Tuesday - 26[May]O9

× ii finished my literature today
× at 1345 went to work for staff meeting
× picked my brother up after wards
× slept && bludged for the rest of the day

Wednesday - 27[May]O9

× went to uni to drop my assignment off & buy parking tickets for exam
× watched nba when ii got home
× bludged!!

Thursday - 28[May]O9

× dropped my brother too school then went to work 0900 for training
× 1615 finished training and started work early because of short staff
× finished work at 2215 = total hours worked 13 hours ii was so tired this day, it was the most stressful day ever!! i had to run the low car because everyone was agency and there was gastro outbreak at work arghh..but its all good.

Friday - 29[May]O9

× took the car for service at the city
× went to the city with nikki to study and window shop
× went home from the city & studied abit
× bludgeee!!

Saturday - 30[May]O9

× Happy Birthday Isaiah
× worked from 0700 till 1330
× slept the rest of the day

Sunday - 31[May]O9

× isaiah & shari's birthday party
× church =]

..as you can now tell, i waste most of my time bludging around instead of studying..dang this sucks! haha.. ohh well thats my last week of may =]

childhood friend hater

2009-06-02T19:02:00.000+10:00

another blog because im trying to avoid ~~studying~~.
so anyway, i've been wanting to post a blog about something that happen a month back now, but i just didn't have the time to post a blog on it, but now that it's exam times it seems like i have all the time in the world. its so weird. well i've actually posted this up on multiply a while back so i thought id copy and paste it instead and edit it around abit...

Anyway like mentioned above I'm supposed to be studying for exams! I HATE IT!! Why can't we just not have exams. lols. Oh wells. That's life ii should stop whinging about it!

Alright, so anyway, have you ever had a childhood ~~'friend'~~ that you couldn't stand at all?

Well I do, and I can't really say hate because hate is such a strong word. Well let's just say I did not like this certain person (& lets call her DS *it's not her initials ok*). Anyway, going back to DS, i just couldnt stand her at all, i have no idea why. There's was something about her that i didn't like. Anyway, so this way like YOINKS and i mean YOINKS ago (meaning primary yoinks ago btw). Well, because of the fact that i was still in primary when i disliked DS, i thought, that you know it was just a childhood thing, because you know we were kids and what not! So obviously moving on I forgot about those days in the past, since it was YOINKS ago. Actually, to be honest, I forgot about her, and everything including her because that was YOINKS ago and because I have not heard about her, or from her, or what not.

Well, obviously because I've forgotten about DS it's so weird that I'm posting a blog about her now, how weird is that?!

Obviously, I remembered her because she added me as her friend in a website called friendster. Everytime someone adds me on friendster, I don't do anything eg comment them, or say thanks for the add because I can't be bothered. I will comment people however if they comment me or when I miss them eg like my cousins and close friends. So, back to DS, she added me on fs and to be honest, I had doubts on whether to accept it or not because of the fact that I couldnt stand her YOINKS ago. Then, I thought about it, the past is the past let it go, and so I did. I accepted the friend request.

Well obviously she commented me, and like I mentioned if someone comments my page I'll write back so I did. About the third time she wrote back she mentioned something along the lines of:
"Oh my gosh, you've gained weight, can't believe you still have the guts to wear that kinda outfit, good on you!'

Ok. So obviously when I got this comment, it pissed me off! Ok, I know I've gained weight compared to when I was in primary and everytime a lot of my friends from the primary say that I've gained weight and all, I don't mind because it's not like how she said it. And plus, if she was one of my closest friends in the past I don't mind her saying that at all but the thing is that she wasn't. So as you can imagine I was FURIOUS!

First thing I did was look at what I was wearing, I was thinking, was it too tight? too short? what was wrong with it? And when I saw what I was a dress which was not too short or tight either. There was nothing wrong with the dress I was wearing so I got so cut about what she said cause it was rude. Second thing I did was delete the comment. Third thing I did was look at her photo, and you know what my reaction was... HYPOCRITE!

It's weird because she was talking like I was so fat right, but when you look at her she's not even skinny. I would say she's bigger than me. I would totally understand if she was SO HOT and gorgeous and what not! Thing is that sorry hunny, but I know what is hot and gorgeous and to be honest, she isn't. So her hating on me is like what the heck is wrong with you!!

Another thing I found is that she tries too much. I can't explain it, but to my friends who knows her and have seen her page and pictures and all, they said the same thing. I was so furious when this happened, but now thinking about it, she makes me crack up, because she's still the same from we were kids.

Honestly, if you read this, stop trying too hard! and stop hating on others especially if it will make you look like a hypocrite! You know what, just be yourself, don't be such a try hard and don't be so maarte. Also, I think you should stop being so self-centred. Lastly, GROW UP!

xx

hairstyle

2009-06-02T11:43:00.001+10:00

old hair du: long side fringe

new hair du: front fringe

so ii got my hair done about a month ago. so now my hair is obviously longer compared to what and how it was, at the moment im having troubles on whether to keep it the way it is now for the rest of the year or have my old hair style back. hmm..=S

unbelievable

2009-06-02T11:27:00.000+10:00

x this blog was from my blog in multiply =] x

I still can't sleep so might as well do another blog, might as well rather than just lying in bed, rolling around tryna find a way to sleep. Actually, the reason why I may be still wide awake it because I had too much sugar!! Hehe, I had a Baklava today, it was just awesome!

Anyways, now, I just remembered what happened on Tuesday. So anyway, gossip girl the season 2 finale came out on Tuesday (Australian Time anyway, in America it was a Monday). So. as mostly everyone knows, I LOVE GOSSIP GIRL! I am OBSSESS with the show and the characters! Yeh, so it's my absolute favourite show! I LOVE IT! So obviously hearing that it's coming out I waited for the show and watched it!! Now whilst watching the show, I was on invisible on YM and appear offline on msn because obviously I did not wanna talk to anyone because I am watching the SEASON 2 FINALE OF MY FAVOURITE SHOW! Now about approximately 10 minutes into the show, I hear this sound (sign in sound in ym), someone signed in on YM. And this person was one of my good friends in NZ! Now this person is a guy but we'll just call him MH! Now MH, was a high school friend of mine, and we were tight! We were close friends. And I liked him before and one point. Ok, so my friends can't stand him because they said his a jerk. But because I liked him at that time I was 'blinded' and because he is my good friend I just ignored what they said. So anyway, he goes on YM, here I am wondering why is he on my YM and not on my MSN! Weird but I ignored it since my msn is new and all. So obviously because his an old friend and I havent heard from anyone from NZ first thing I do is say Hi!. So we have this conversation about how is nz and how is australia and etc. Now obviously I am watching my favourite show, I didn't really reply back as soon as possible because for obvious reasons. Now, I replied back saying that I had to go since I'm watching gossip girl and told him to add me on my msn but at the same time I hinted that we were not gonna be able to talk or chat online as much since his busy and I am too. By the way MH has a girlfriend, they started going out in 2007. So after I told him to add me and stuff, I get a reply back from him saying, 'sorry I can't add you, I'm not even suppose to talk to you, my girlfriend doesn't want me talking to you and she doesntl like it'. Obviously I was in such a shock!! Because, FYI, I have not met the girl, I have not spoken to MH in approx 2 years and have not seen him either so hellerrr what the heck is he talking about! And as response I'm like what the heck!? I'm sorry but FYI I'm happily taken too! I'm so far away and I haven't talked to him. So that's what I told him and he answers back saying, 'she's not happy that you kept calling me when you first arrived in australia because everytime you called she was around'. I was speechless at this point. Because to be honest I had to think about what the heck his talking about. What did he mean calling him? I never called him. Then I remembered I called him once, and not only that I called all my other good friends too that day from new zealand just too catch up. I then thought to myself, as if!! Exagerate it much! What a jerk! And I found it funny that the gf was jealous of me, I'm so far away lols as if! That's just hillarious! And btw before this incident a couple of months before I have spoken to my bestfriend in NZ and she told me they were already having problems with their relationship anyway. Then obviously whatever, I just ended the convo told him to have a good life and it was nice knowing him then I blocked and deleted him off all my list, MSN AND YAHOO AND MOB NUMBER! My friends were so right about him he was such a jerk! I couldn't even remember calling him because that had been so long ago. Obviously someone held onto that specific time. Gawsh someone held a grudge against me and I didnt even know it.

This taught me a lesson. That why waste your time holding a grudge against a person, when most likely that person have no idea what's going through your mind and whats going on with how you feel about them unless you bring it up a couple of years later which would not make sense to that person either. Basically you are putting youself in such a hard time with the whole having a grudge over someone when that person has no idea and is still living their life as it is without having any idea or the grudge your holding against them. Such a waste of your time. It was so unbelievable, I laugh when I think about it cause it's hillarious but now I learnt my lesson!! Let go off the past and forgive!!

You dont have to neccesarily forgive and forget..you just have to forgive!!